The Storm and Sunflower: Healing and Dealing

Everything was fine,
the sun rises so brightly
and the skies look so clearly
until the storm was coming..

I am a person that feels the highest of high and the lowest low. I easily triggered by small things which I never wanted to dying for also I quickly abandon everything and anything that I am closed to. I am absolutely overthinker who always made bad screnario in my head. I am impulsive for everything and I don't realize that before

I feel to much and overwhelming; I love to much, I care to much, I need to much, I isolated so much, I get insecure to much, I get anxiety to much, I am sensitive to much, and I push away the people i love the most.  This storm came as unexpectedly disaster for me. They are crushed my brain to smashed all my plan and hopes. I gasp at my vulnerability and wonder, “Why did this happen?”

I am warrior with no compass in the forest of misfortune. When the sun say goodbye I walked away through the darkness to get answer who trully I am.

In deep thought, the moon watching me also the star stares at me although their never ever talk to me their show me how the universe works that you'll deserve what you deserve.

You did not something bad but you're illnes did. This is not you are wanted, you are not wrong don't blame yourself for that cause you deserve to be loved.

Don't let your storm destroy you
your softness is not a weakness
your kindness is your strength
Lets control yourself and let your demon defeat and your sunflower rises.

Two flowers growing in opposite directions, sometimes your reality kills your expectation.
Maybe you made bad choices at that time,
Healing and dealing is perfection to make up the imperfection.